Recently I was feeling conflicted.
I was at a crossroads about a major decision. Should I go this way or that way? I didn't know which way to go.
Should I commit to going to grad school, get another degree, a mountain load of student debt or should I commit to becoming a men's coach and do the work I know I am called to do around helping other men?
I felt weak and indecisive, paralyzed about making a decision even though in my deepest, truest self I already knew the answer. I kept questioning myself and my choices, scared I was making the wrong choice, trying to stay in my comfort zone instead of challenging myself to grow, even though that growth might be really uncomfortable.
One of my shadows had me in its grip and it wasn't going to be easy to shake off.
Can you relate to that?
What I needed was to address the shadow head on from a place of grounded and rooted masculine awareness, from a place of true strength.
The strength that can only come from knowing yourself, choosing yourself and acting on that choice in your best interests.
Fortunately I had some help and I did a deep dive into my shadows and encountered that shadow which had me in its grip.
It was the shadow of my father and a memory I had when I was 12 years old. I was at the dinner table sharing a compliment I had gotten from a girl about a book I was reading.
He said, "If you're so smart, why can't you get better grades?"
It was just one incident among many in my life where he tried to crush my spirit and make me small.
And here he was again reaching from the past to try and make me feel small, to try and make me feel dumb and keep me from realizing my potential.
But I wasn't going to let him do that. And I had help.
For so long in my life I had tried to white knuckle my way through my shadows, fears and insecurities, but what I have learned is that you don't have to go on the journey alone. You can go with brothers who understand and can relate to your experiences because they know the territory. Their stories aren't the same, and neither are their experiences, but they can relate.
I confronted this shadow with my brothers and I changed the story on a deep level and came out the other side feeling confident and grounded in myself, knowing that I can move forward with my decision and let go of the need to be in the comfort zone.
If you've ever felt something similar, felt lost, scared and indecisive, and you've tried and tried on your own to make the choice, but kept finding yourself back in the comfort zone numbing yourself with alcohol, drugs, porn, video games or other distractions, or just stuck and unable to make a decision, there is a better way.
Allow me the privilege to take you on a journey...the journey to discover your sacred masculine power and discover the deepest abiding strength you have within you.
If you're ready, sign up for a free sacred masculine strategy session and let's explore the challenges and shadows in your life by shining a light on them.
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